Vacation overload

I never thought I would say it, but finally my vacation is near its end. Phew! Vacation can be hard, allthough I am very happy it happens in the month of Cancer and Leo, the more playful signs of the Zodiac. The focus is simply enjoying life, understanding the necessecity to breathe in and nourish the Soul. And the planets has been crossing the nightsky without me noticing, nor blogging about it, vacationmode is its own little bubble, mostly protected from the movements in the sky.

But there is a limit to everything , and a few days ago, Venus crossed into Virgo, pushing the work-button, the party is over. Soon, Mercury will join and makes sure you put into practise whatever paritcular task you have at hand in order to realise your potential. According to my father, a survey done amongst the elderly , posing one question : "what did you reget in your life" reavealed that most of them regetted not working more. Work develops us, it is a creative playground for us, it makes us stronger, if the attitude is right. In our society, we have a tendency to critizise and fight almost everything, and I do not think that it is a surprise that auto-immune illnesses are popping up everywhere, the internal battling is really coming to the front. This battle is fought also with our jobs, and to tell you the truth, each and one of us is beyond compare. We are all unique, not something the competitive Dash Parr of the Incredibles was too enthusiazed to hear when his mother said : "but Dash, we are all special". He replies rather dryly : "That is the same thing as saying that none of are special" and he has got a point. Having a job that doesn't fullfill your thirst for life is a though challenge. Leo, where the Sun currently resides, is the sign of self-actualisation. On a more spiritual level it is important to understand that this has nothing to do with "fame and glory". That is the Ego-desires operation. Which is ok, but can be quite draining to the more spiritually inclined individual. The Sun operates then on a different level, it brings forward another dimension, making us understand that true success is the ability to enjoy life, without anything special, nothing external to make us feel good. Hard to achieve maybe, but certainly possible. Joy for no apparent reason. Living life without making demands all the time. Such bliss. Such freedom. This is the self-realisation process the Indians speak of. It is always there, heaven is always there. You can always enter.

Venus in Virgo is telling us that whatever you do, do it with dedication, with your full attention. In this way, everything , even the dishwashing, can become a blessing, a meditation, something that replenishes your energy. And Virgo is all about replenishing. This is why it is so closely tied up with health, it tells us how to use energy in order to stay healthy, and that all has a consequence. The way you think, the food you eat, the routines that you have in your life, they all make a difference. The health of the treetrunk will tell you if there will be any fruit on the branches.

Venus in Virgo enjoys work. It is grateful for service, it thrives with work. I read somewhere just recently a short interview with a doctor coming back to work after a month of vacation. He was asked about the challenges of returning to work with an overload of tasks awaiting. "Being busy, is not the same as being stressed out" he answered..That's the attitude..:)


I slept and dreamt that life was a joy I awoke and saw that life was service I acted and behold, service was joy. - Rabindranath Tagore

The moon is ripe.

The sweetness of summer is at its fullest, the forest is ripe with blueberries and the ducklings are allready fat and ready to swim alone. And the cancerian Sun makes us all feel slow and quiet. It seems like everything is moving in a calmer pace, and Mercury, our favorite neurotic, has allready been a few days in Cancer, changing his face yet another time, this time putting on his robe and chilling under a Sun that does practically nothing. Eating, resting, going for a few walks, being with family, playing with the kids, all this is the Cancerian domain. Sleeping. The benefits of good rest and the time to meditate. Summer at its sweetest.
Minor things cannot upset us for long in this state. Mars is in Virgo however, so frustrations might surface, which could very well taint out vacationmode. If you have the chance you should let it all go.

It is a time to tune in, Mercury in Gemini these last two months could easily have been a mental race that made us all feel that we have had enough of chit-chatting, cyberspacing and networking. Mercury in Cancer is another dimension entirely. What is inbetween the words is much more interesting than what comes out of the mouth. What you say and how you feel might be two different things, and you will perhaps feel much more sensitive to other people's emotions these days. This is both good and bad, being overly sensitive can overpower you , and tomorrows fullmoon might just be a reminder that we need to stay alert in the face of emotional manipulations, minor and major ones. Boundaries and taking time to really explain and go thoroughly through things might ease some of the guilt that so easily occurs when we are in contact with eachother, and especially when we perhaps feel that we hurt someone. This can be very sensitive and vulnerable energies, so stepping lightly and with compassion through this fullmoon might be adviceable.

We all carry our histories, even small children have theirs allthough we might not think about it. Taking each person as he or she is is a great challenge as we tend to project ourselves out on the world and onto people. Listening to the subtle realms is perhaps a lesson that we need to learn again and again. And knowing how to approach what we hear when we truly listen is another challenge. For how do you use the knowledge of others vulnerablities? How do we help eachother becoming more secure beings ?
To validate eachother is all well, but how do we evolve beyond neediness?

Cancer is a lesson of self-love. If we don't accept and love ourselves, we will create a battle with the world sooner or later. Before you know it an enemy has shown up on your door, challenging your sense of security. It is the true law of attraction, and if we don't master selflove, which is true selfmastery, then we wont be able to manifest in the outer world what we naturally are. It is, as I have said so many times, our inner foundation, our emotional relation first and foremost to ourselves. The child that once ran into obstacles and got cut and bruised in more than one way. The familyhistorie on re-run. This is also Cancer, and this fullmoon marks the end of the solar month of the Crab. From an evolutionary point of view, if the Cancerian lessons of selflove are well integrated, the entry into Leo can be a really creative one. From water to fire, from emoting to expressing.
This coming solar month can bring a lot of goodies in that regard, but more about that later.
For now, make sure you can honor the goddess power of both the fullmoon and of Cancer.

"The more she emotes, the less he listens, and the less he listens, the more strident and emotive she becomes" Maggie Scarf.

This might very well sum it all up.

Tiptoeing through the wilderness

Mercury has been going in a retrograde motion in the sign where it rules, Gemini, for about two weeks allready, and it will continue the rethinking process for another week ++. We hear many rumours about Mercury retro, and some of them, yes, they are true..It is a fact that the mental energies and the left side of the brain works so hard that there is a really good opportunity to blow a fuse. It is true that computers and keys and cars behave a littlebit unusual, and that people are distant, their eyes are somewhere in the clouds as they reassess, rethink, trying to remember something they thougth they forgot, trying to forget something that they suddenly remembered.
It is true that stuff gets lost in the mail. But what is truer that anything mentioned above is the opportunity to really grow mentally. Maybe you feel like your mind is going through a purificationprocess? It will happen sooner or later as we grow more mature. Maybe you see that you drag along mental garbage, thoughts on repeat, that no longer serve you, they are just blocking your devotion to life.
You can see it in the eyes of people when they think too much. You probarly have done this before, but trying to observe what goes through your mind the minute you move around people, you realise that your mind labels everything. And labelling is a way of judging. Always the mental chatter. "Look at that dress" ..."Ohh, that was a really cute one"..." what will we have for dinner?" It is amazing how the mind can think so much, but it is also just a flow of energy, energy that moves in any direction, until it is disciplined and directed to better use..Like moving into the heart. And thus to peace..And this way you will be walking peace for other people..You will do a service to the world, just by being.
We all have this choice, but we tend not to use it. Maybe we aren't made aware that there is a choice. Most people find that letting go of thinking is really hard. A friend of mine explained it well when he said :"Just remember the love"

Letting go of thinking about all the imperfections that we see around us , is for many people very hard, because we don't have enough faith. We are taught that we should always be alert in this jungle of life, so that trouble will not come lurking up from behind and surprise us when we are not watching. One thing is being open and direct, facing problems head on, and then move into the flow again. Another thing is being ignorant , and flow artificially through drugs, dreaminess or numbness. Or, on the other side of the axis, to overthink and to worry about the minor details of life. Both these two latter options are draining to the system.
As always , the answer is in the middle..And it is green :) Just like nature. It is harmony. Drinking coffe will not take this harmony away. Eating chocolate or sleeping too little, will not take harmony away. You find your way back to the middle through every breath. It is meditating while walking, while doing your tasks, while working, while having sex.

These coming days we will have the planetoid Chiron's energy highlighted, and all this is about embracing the middleway, finding the balance that serves you, that makes you feel whole. The recipies on how to live life has to be thrown out the window. There is no need to do anything but to observe. If you feel like eating chocolate or drinking a bottle of wine and have a party on your own, do it..I know, we are afraid of going overboard, that is why we mantain so thight control over ourselves and the people we have in our lives, but Chiron is all about sensing balance, and understanding how to mantain it. It is all about listening to the body, and trusting it again. We are complex beings, and the time has come for us earthlings to align again with the power of the feminine.
The Godess accepts imperfection as life. The masculine condemn imperfection. Just think about it..Think about all the anger that the world has against that which is deemed imperfect. The Godess knows more. She is aware that we are all in the making, and that nothing in nature can be called perfect. For something to be perfect it would have to stand still.
Too bad everything in the Universe is constantly pulsating on one frequency or another. We are vibrant.

Chiron is a reflection of the wound, for those familiar with the myth, you know that he was an educated and inspiring centaur (half horse, half man), someone who was able to sublimate the raw lifeforce into compassion and acceptance. He is the symbol of the wound inflicted upon humanity through the patriarchy, namely the constant battle with human's instinctual and sexual nature. The symbolism of the beast within us that needs to be integrated.
Our connection to nature, to nature in ourselves, the power of the feminine.

So let the wild Godess soar. Feel the power of your earthconnection, let the feet walk you where you need to go. Let yourself out of the prison of the mind. In this way you will fulfill the ultimate intention of Mercury retro, to transcend duality.